This video from the MND Association pretty much demonstrates what happened to my mum between 2008 and 2010. Although the process of degeneration is brutally quickened, the emotions and reactions it elicits are the same. I find it difficult to watch and I hate the undignified portrayal of this woman but for me, watching such things are exactly what I need to help me through the grieving process. It's reality.
At this present time I can only really remember mum in the end state and I hope
that one day when I think of her, my first thought will be of her in a
normal mum state. Until then, I will continue to think of her as I
naturally do in the hope that once I've confronted those images head on I'll be able to move past them to happier memories.